Why am i pushing everyone out again? Why am I letting myself slip further and further away again?
I feel like i failure and i feel depressed. I feel even worse because i have so many people around me who love and care about me and all i want to do is push them away and try to do it on my own. I want to be independent and face this on my own. I tld my mentor today that i was okay and i am dealing but truth be told the way i am coping and dealing is going to eventually kill me and it scares me... I know that one time of purging can knock my body out of whack and i can die. But why isnt this enough to make me stop. I keep asking myself this over and over again. I hope i can get myself together and be okay and just deal.
I just want to be happy and for everything to be okay again
No comments:
Post a Comment