So...Update on my life
Things have been going good for the most part. I have the love of my life back!!! He just gets me and knows how to make me feel better.
My eating disorder not so great. My aunt has us on this Paleo Diet and its been triggering alot of self-hate and old thoughts. Most the time I get lost in my own thoughts and i start thinking to myself: your fat, your ugly, disgusting, worthless, your never going to amount to anything, your never going anywhere in life, you know your boyfriend thinks your disgusting when he is touching you, you fat ass cow,your a failure!!!
All these thoughts and its like you repeat it to yourself so many times, you start to believe it and no matter how many times someone tell you the opposite it doesn't matter because I just don't believe it.
With time I really hope things get better, I dont want to go back to as sick as i was, my eating disorder just about killed me....
